Peace of Christ to you! If I am nothing else, I will settle for being authentic. I admit it. I’m tired.
OK, here is the context before you start spreading the news. These last few months living and working at St. Ambrose have been nothing short of astounding. The People of God here have an intense desire to serve the Lord, to serve their community, and to serve one another. They care deeply about making this parish a welcoming environment that thrives on activity. The support and care I’ve received surpassed my expectations of what could be possible from a parish community.
And yet, despite all this bragging, I’m tired. And that aggravates me. I’m not tired because I do too much — I get tired of my routines and habits. Even though it’s an amazing ministry, I have to admit, I sometimes feel unfulfilled. This is humanity on display. We can be in our best environment, living our best lives, surrounded by everything that we’ve ever needed, and more. And yet, sometimes, it can still fall short. We can be left tired, annoyed, frustrated, disappointed, or unfulfilled.
I tread on this subject lightly. It’s hard to admit that even when we are in the midst of so many blessings, there can still be a longing in our hearts, something unfulfilled, something that isn’t completely satisfying. It’s this place where sin and temptation love to work their way in, to create a foothold where they ought not.
Even if this is a place where evil can take a hold in our life, this sensation, this feeling of wanting more, this can be the most incredible place of encounter with Jesus should we allow ourselves to speak this truth. It’s not selfish to acknowledge this, not having everything in our hearts filled. It’s what Christ will ultimately do when we join Him for eternity. This experience can serve us well here on Earth if we unite it to God. It is Him who reminds us of our return to the Father. That is why this life can never be truly, completely satisfying. At least not without Jesus at the absolute center of it all.
When you have everything, and you still want more, go to Christ in the Blessed Sacrament, in daily Mass, in adoration, or on Sunday. Go to Him who satisfies every desire.